9014 Chapter 14 of: “Twinergy and the Boys of Clear Lake!”

 

We looked at each other as a limb probably in the neighborhood of 200 to 300 pounds CRASHED into the railing were Cody was standing only moments before. Tearing out a whole section of railing and some of the wooden flooring sending them to the concrete deck and pool water below.

I just looked up as I felt some liquid run into my left eye, and I was shaking and crying as tears ran down my face. I wiped my eye, and it was blood from a cut over my eyebrow on my forehead where I hit the floor. Cody looked at me and saw the blood on my face and sweatshirt, and saw the tears and that I was crying. He stared at me for a few seconds even more shocked not knowing what was going on.

Cody looked at me with his mouth wide open and I broke down and fell into his arms emotionally bankrupt, crying uncontrollably. I was crying so hard I was practically screaming as a mixture of tears and blood came down my face.

Cody held me tight as we were all wrapped up in a tight ball on the floor with arms wrapped around each other unable to tell what body part belonged to whom, as if we were Siamese twins, or Siamese twinners I should say. I felt his hand go up the back of my sweatshirt and caress my bare back as I began to calm under his love and comforting.

My senses were coming back on line, and I could hear him whispering over and over again, “Shhhh Nika, shhhh. It’s gonna be OK, you saved my life my love! “Shhhh Nika, shhhh. It’s gonna be OK, you saved my life my love!

Just then some lights came on and Sasha and Sequoia came running out of the house as Tasha and a few of her friends came running from around the side of the house yelling, “Hey, Are You Guys OK? What was that!” They slowed down as the damage on the tree house and deck came into their line of sight, and as they approached and saw the debris on the deck below, “We heard……..Holy Shit, you guys are lucky that didn’t hit you, you’d be dead!”

About that time my Mom and Dad came from inside the house and were running out to the scene, “Nika, Cody, Are you two OK?”

I still couldn’t talk and had my head buried in Cody’s chest. Cody yelled out, “Yah Mr. V, Nika’s got a little cut and he’s kinda shaken up, is all. He just bumped his head pushing me outta the way. That thing woulda clobbered me right on the head!”

Sasha: “Whoaaa fuck, you saved his life Nika!”

Nadia (Mom): “Maybe you two should come in for the night and sleep in the house honey!”

Nika: “Nah Mom, we’ll be fine out here. I’ll be OK in a few minutes after Cody puts a band-aid on this cut (down playing the injury). And besides, it’s never happened before, so what are the chances of it happening again on the same night?”

Nadia (Mom): “What do you think Niklas?”

Niklas (Dad): “Yah hon, they’ll be fine. You boys stay inside up there and get some sleep before morning breaks. If I hear another branch snap off like that one, you’re coming inside, you hear me?”

Cody: “Yes Mr. V. Was it loud?”

Tasha: “Holy shit Cody, we heard it at the front of the house. It sounded like a canon going off!”

Sequoia: “Yes, it was very loud Cody, in many ways! And very wise listening to your inner voice Nika!”

As my Mom and Dad, and Tasha and her friends wandered off to where they came from, I could still hear Sash and Sequoia looking around down below inspecting the damage. I heard Sasha yell up, “Hey you guys, can we come and look at the damage and hang out with you guys?”

Then I heard Sequoia tell Sasha, “No Sasha, now is not the time for that. Your brother and Cody need this time to be together, and they need to be alone.”

Sasha: “OK, then lets go inside and finish the movie. I wanna make some kettle corn and pour some cheese on it. We should have this annual BBQ’s every month…huh?”

Sequoia: “Sasha, annual means……never mind!”

Cody heard Sasha and Sequoia and kinda laughed and it made me smile too. I realized that was us a couple years ago, and that we were changing fast…growing up. And it made me happy and sad all at the same time. I knew how innocent Sasha was, and Sequoia would be, if his childhood hadn’t been taken from him by a cruel chain of events. And I knew we had turned a corner in our lives and could never go back to that time now.

I felt like Blake was right when he was talking to Reiley earlier, and that maybe it is gone too fast. I mean, I know my feelings for Cody, and thanks to Blake, Cody’s for me. And they are wonderful feelings and very powerful. `Cept I can find love and relationships the rest of my life. But once past that “tween” barrier, that time of pajamas and popcorn, there’s no going back.

I would never see life again through the eyes of my little brother, and it was a breathtaking revelation at a most unwelcome time. I flashed back to our annual BBQ two or three years ago. And thought about Cody and I heating up pizza and spilling soda on the bedroom carpet, or playing Halo and watching The Return of the King.

And falling asleep with the TV still on, and waking up as a single Cody and Nika pretzel under the covers the next morning. With never a thought of sex, or anything more than what we were gonna eat and where we were gonna meet the posse to swim. Now, I find myself in the home stretch, stealing third and sliding into adolescence. And wondering if it would have been better if they had called a rain delay while I was still on second base, and still enjoying my tween years with my friends.

“Well”, I thought as Cody shook me and asked if I was OK. It’s too late now, the genie is out of the bottle, and there’s no putting it back. “Yah, I’m fine Codes, just thinking about something Blake said this afternoon, and Sasha.”

Cody: “About growing up and getting older Nika?”

Nika: “Yah, how’d you know?”

Cody: “`Cause we’ve both been sitting here silent for about five minutes. Sometimes Sasha says things that bring me back to when you and I were younger, and it kinda makes me smile and hurt all at the same time.”

Nika: “That’s what I was thinking too, Twinner.”

Cody: “It’s hard wanting to grow up and getting all the kool things associated with it, but at the same time, like Blake pointed out, and from watching Sasha, having it register what you’re having to give up. I love the new Nika, but I also miss my old Nika, and who you were. Does that make any sense?”

Nika: “Yah Cody, it does. I was just thinking about when you were eleven and had those cute aqua-blue braces on your teeth. I see pictures of you when you were like that and wanna go back to 5th or 6th grade and spend the whole summer there, but I can’t.”

Cody: “I know Nika. I look back at you a couple years, and realize I’ll never see you like that again, and it makes me feel like crying. I loved you then, and I still do, but times seems to be going by too fast, and I’m not sure were making the most of it.”

Nika: “I know what you mean. Sash just flipped the outside lights off. Let’s go inside and push the beanbags together and throw down a sleeping bag and some blankets, its wet out here and getting cold. Besides, you need to fix my head, so grab the first aid kit.”

Cody: “Ha ha, yah, I need to fix your head alright. You said it.”

Nika: “Watch it dork!”

Cody: “Hey Nika, I think this will be the first time we’ve ever used the first aid kit and it wasn’t on Blake and the twins…..or Jace.”

Nika: “Yah, I think you’re right, we’ll have to write the date on the box so we always remember.”

Cody: “The way times going by, that’s probably a good idea.”

We went inside and I sat down on a chair as Cody opened the kit and grabbed some gauze and rubbing alcohol. He poured some on the gauze and began wiping my face and forehead being careful not to get any in my eyes. Most of the blood came right off, except for the outside edges of the streams where it dried a little. I used a paper towel and some bottled water to wash out my eye, as he finished cleaning the blood and holding pressure on the cut till it stopped bleeding. Then he applied a little Neosporin and a couple butterfly bandages.

Cody: “There yah go Nika, all better buddy.”

Nika: “Thanks Cody, love yah.”

We then made a big “hog-wallow” type bed with the beanbags and sleeping bags and blankets and cracked another beer and laid back. We were both laying on our backs facing opposite directions with our heads right about the others bellybuttons are, and my hand on his chest and his on mine. That way we could talk while we looked at each other.

Nika: “I had a great time tonight Cody.”

Cody: “So did I Nika. Do we ever not?”

Nika: “Haha, no. Hey Cody,” as I took his hand in mine.

Cody: “Yah Nik.”

Nika: “When we were talking earlier about you opening up to me, before we went outside?”

Cody: “Yah, what about it Nika?”

Nika: “I don’t know how to approach this Cody, so here it is. Does it have anything to do with calling me your love earlier after the accident when you were holding me?”

Cody began to fidget and looked visibly distressed.

Cody: “You’re not taking any shortcuts are you Nika?”

I could feel Cody squeeze my hand a little harder, and I squeezed back tight signaling it was OK to answer. Then I told him, “If I’m right, and I’m sure I am, then you’ve been in pain for way to long my friend. I only wish you had put more faith and trust in me long ago so you didn’t have to carry this burden for so long.”

Cody: “Yes Nika.”

Nika: “Yes what, Cody? You need to say it, and I need to hear it, no turning back this time Cody!”

Cody: “Yes Nika. I’m, I’m,…. I’m gay and called you my love, `cause that’s how I wanna see you. That is how I see you, and have for years.”

Nika: “Was that so hard Cody?”

Cody: “No Nika, the hard part is what comes next. How you reply, that’s the hard part. I’ve waited for years for this moment and probably put it off for so long, so I can keep the dream alive, and not find out it was all for nothing.”

Nika: “Well, Cody?”

Cody: “Yah?”

I leaned forward and kissed my friend on the lips and gently pushed my tongue along his lips wetting them and then just past to his teeth, a little way in.

When I slowly pulled away, Cody was shaking slightly and his eyes were closed. I could see how his breathing was shallow and sporadic and he wasn’t sure about what just happened. I looked right into his eyes as they opened and said, “Sometimes dreams come true Cody. Tonight your dream came true!”

Cody: “What Nika?”

Nika: “I’m sorry it took me longer than you to discover who I am Cody, but I love you. And don’t know yet if I’m 100% gay, or just bi, but know enough now to know I love you. And not as just a friend, brother, and twinner anymore.”

With that said, Cody’s eye’s began to tear up as he began to laugh and cry all at the same time, like in those movies where someone finds out someone they thought had died is really alive and they break down. Cody jumped on me and kissed my lips and then just held me tight as we rolled around on our beanbags and kissed each others lips, cheeks, neck, and any other facial territory we hadn’t yet explored.

It all seemed unreal, and we both began exchanging awkward glances and touches unaware how to proceed from there. We both were aware of the overpowering urges, desires, and physical and emotional feelings that have burdened us for so long. But except for partial memories from wet dreams and fantasy thoughts during masturbation, neither of us had any sexual experience to speak of, and fumbled about awkwardly, both nervous and a little insecure.

It was apparent we were both shaking and tried on several occasions to speak at the same time, both saying, “Sorry, you go,” at the same time. We kinda laughed it off, and I could feel my face was red, and Cody was squeezing one hand with his other, something he always does when he’s nervous. I learned long ago to look for that if I think hes trying to hide something from me.

3 Responses to “9014 Chapter 14 of: “Twinergy and the Boys of Clear Lake!””

  1. toma Says:

    your a great writer, enjoying it so far. Keep it up! nice chapter 🙂

    peace

  2. Hermes Says:

    Cody: I have only one word to express how you handled the big revelation. FUCKING PERFECT. Okay, that was 2 words, but you get the idea.

    Keep it up. Well, since it’s already written and posted, I can say, I am certain you kept it going well (Saying I am certain you kept it up just seemed naughty…haha)

    I look forward to more! It’s freakin 2:15am and I’m no where near stopping for the night!

  3. Bill Says:

    Cody — I know it’s a story. But this is how all relationships should develop. As Hermes said, “Fucking perfect!” The fear present on both sides of the equation, so-to-speak, indicates a love-level of respect on both their parts. Thanks for yet, another great read!

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